Tranquil Waters

Anxiety and depression can manifest through multiple avenues. There are seasons, situations, and circumstances that can spark uncomfortable feelings. A disorder or chemical imbalance could bring on a change of emotions.

Anxiety and depression can also be used as a weapon wielded by Satan and his demons to wreak havoc. I highly recommend confronting the latter through studying the Bible, prayer and fasting; before proceeding forward to doctors. Jesus is the best physician.

As for myself, the depression was back. I couldn’t bear the heavy load a second time. The night was upon me, and I decided to go swimming to clear my mind.

It was springtime, and the pool was too cold, but fortunately there was a hot tub nearby. Oh, how I enjoy a hot tub! It’s soothing, and my imagination roams within the ripples of water.

I sat quietly while meditating upon my life. Why am I depressed? The error quickly became obvious. I had neglected my walk with Christ and replaced Him with entertainment and success.

I thought about LOTK, for the first time in months. It was a mistake to have quit. I became determined to complete the manuscript, but determination wouldn’t ease the depression.

I had been living in anxiety/fear instead of walking in victory. Was this something I could recover from? No, not alone. But I knew someone much greater than myself.

I once again looked into the sky. It was a clear night, and the stars were twinkling like diamonds. “Lord, forgive me, and please end this…again,” I kindly asked.

 I waited for a sword to fall from the heavens, something; anything! Yet nothing more than a few planes passed by. I went to bed with a heavy sigh, but God had other plans. He was about to show me something so incredible it’s difficult to describe.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.”

Proverbs 3: 5-6